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Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need

Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
Yeah

-- Mae, Tisbury Lane

I don't know what the song is about, but it's a fun song and these lyrics in particular made me think of a friend. It made me think of me too.

It's Christmas Eve, I got to see two best friends last night that I haven't seen since I got married, and one of them lives in a completely different state. It was really nice and I wish I could see them more often. They were both commenting about how weird it is that I have a husband and I'm married, and it is kind of funny to think about. I've been married for just about 7 months. Awesome. Coming with being married for 7 months is probably that the last 3 months have been one of the hardest I've had in a long time, and all of it has nothing to do with being married. News from a friend broke my heart, yet through it God managed to dig stuff out of me that I didn't even know was there. He used one issue to point at a deeper issue. And now it's been a process of working through it, and I am so grateful for Scott's presence because I think a lot of this would be more difficult without him.

It's appropriate that I think about all of this during Christmas and the Advent season. Advent is all about celebrating the anticipation of Christ's birth. God coming to Earth, Immanuel, is all wrapped up into Jesus... and with that comes healing, restoration, redemption, humility, beauty, freedom. And right now I'm working on looking it all right in the face. This is why Jesus came, this is why He died.

It's a beautiful thing.

And now I get to spend my first Christmas apart from family. Yikes. I'm excited though since I will be spending it with my new part of the family, my in-laws. A lot of people complain about in-laws, and I can see why, but I've had so many second and third sets of parents through friends that it doesn't feel that much different. It'll be good. Here goes!