Vent

Here are some things I've been experiencing as of late, along with tidbits here and there. The upside is that it's put a lot of fuel for some art. Hopefully I can get into the studio and pour out all these thoughts in drawings...

grief, sadness, anger and guilt
the joy of redemption, mercy, grace

"We all want something beautiful."

"How much more severely do you think a man deserves to be punished who has trampled the Son of God under foot, who has treated as an unholy thing the blood of the covenant that sanctified him, and who has insulted the Spirit of grace? For we know him who said, "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," and again, "The Lord will judge his people."

"Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."

"Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything."

"Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body."

"Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?"

The downside is that I'm still wrestling, and trying to figure out how to be happy for someone else's happiness, when their happiness means spitting in the face of the One they used to live for.

"Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!"

Nebuchadnezzar brought to being less than human by his pride, Daniel 4:28 to the end.

"...how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!"

"Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death."

"But even such nearly instantaneous events are not as instantaneous as they seem. The are like earthquakes, which seem to happen suddenly, without warning. But we know that earthquakes are only the climatic events of process that has taken years, sometimes decades, centuries or millennia, of accumulated stresses deep under the earth."

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast."

"Cause everything inside me looks like everything I hate; You are the hope I have for change; You are the only chance I'll take."

There is much to say, much to vent, much to pour out with tears and frustration. But I fear those words will hurt you.

Sigh.

God give me the grace to handle the things I don't understand.